I'm one of the luckiest people you will ever meet.

Busy is an understatement these days.

Working about 45 hours per week, possibly about to move (this makes it the 5th time this year), and finishing up my co-op at the Sunflower. I’m not stressed really, just tired all of the time.

I really want to get back into blogging, because as it turns out, I like it a lot. But for now, back to work.

Immediately after my last post, it’s like it all finally hit me.

I have diabetes.

2 out of 3 diabetics die from heart disease or stroke. 

This disease could, and most likely, will kill me. 

I’m having a really rough night.

I don’t want to think like this.

musicalefille52592:

Type One Diabetes.

Zac’s story about his life with Type One Diabetes and ways that we can all help to raise awareness and find a cure.   ♥

This literally made me cry, maybe because of the music. Or maybe because that kid is so young & is still able to smile through everything. I hope to be the same way.

(Source: lovemetoinfinityandbeyond, via tanaakers-deactivated20110928)

My bad for not updating in such a long time. This week has been crazy busy.

First - got a new job…actually, I filled the vacancy of not having one at all. I start tomorrow. Wish me luck :)

Second - found out I have about 2 more years of school to go due to transferring. I’m happy to kind of see a light at the end of the tunnel, but 2 more years seems so far away. I guess that does give me time to study abroad though…hmm…

Third - I have been considering joining a sorority. I honestly know nothing about greek life, but networking and knowing people is so important for my major. Having an opportunity to meet new people & get my name out there will only benefit me. Again, wish me luck.

**#1, #2, #3 all have to do with the “me” thing. I deleted that post, but anyone that read it will understand. I’m finding “me”.

Fourth - I have had a very difficult time sleeping lately. I go through periods of this; I believe the last time I had this happen was spring/summer 2010. Like, I’m exhausted right now, but no way can I fall asleep. I can lay in bed for hours & just imagine what being asleep would be like. I yawn until tears stream down my face (not because I’m crying, but because I’m yawning that much). Sleep aids don’t help, either. Beyond frustrating. Does anyone know why this happens?

Fifth - My blood has been pretty good this week, thanks to my hardcore work outs that I’ve had. The only irritating thing (still) is when I know I gave myself enough insulin based on carbs, and my blood still ends up in the 250 range. I go see my endo soon, so hopefully they can help me with that :/

Sixth - I’m going to end this here. I am physically drained. Now I am going to lay in bed & imagine going to sleep.

lolabetic:

sofapizza:

so hardcore

 I would pay so much to see this.

Stupid numbers. They’re so jumpy, it’s rather irritating. The 248 is because I drank last night (which is also confusing - most peoples blood sugars will raise really high, then drop dangerously low, right? Mine has never dropped). The 83 is because I bolused too much on breakfast/worked out. But i’m seriously sick of the high numbers. 

I don’t have a pump, but I really want one. My specialist told me that I have to get used to needles & meters for a while before they can put me on one…and that’s annoying.

Besides that, my day has been pretty fantastic. Although 90% of the time I hate Kansas weather, this week has been absolutely perfect. High of 75 today. Literally a week and half ago it was -10. Let’s keep it this way from now on, Mother Nature.

If this is really true, I’m really pumped.

still-film asked: You're awesome. Really. :)

Eh, I’m just like everyone else (besides my insulin-like dependencies :)

Thank you to the people who answered my question! You guys are great, and make me smile, as you can see :)